Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?
It’s January. Term has started. I’m finding my rhythm again. I’m a mum of school kids and one home-schooled child. There are school runs, club sign-ups, drama auditions, medical appointments, curriculum purchases. Oh and they need to be fed. My youngest is trying choir and ballet. Maybe German. I’m trying not to forget anything. I have to purposefully keep my head out of the clouds.
These days I’m really only thinking about today.
In general though, I think more about the past. The future is ultimately out of my hands. I’m not in charge of it. I’m not worried about it. But my past can shape my reactions and inform my decisions – and I don’t trust it.
There is however, so much peace in letting go of the past. Deliberately de-tensing those sneaky little muscles that over-activate, as if it’s up to them to hold me together. Deliberately casting off those hyper-alert thoughts that tell me I’m not safe and my family isn’t safe.
And as I do that I think more clearly. I have more integrity. I can make better decisions. My children relax.
By faith I am safe.
Maybe the clouds are where our thoughts should be?
#bloganuary
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